I wanted to tell you about a dance I did with Jayne. She is my favourite teacher because she is so Authentic.
There is no ego with her. This is the most important thing I hold value in. I went in knowing absolutely nothing about the practice and came out a different person. How do you describe a thing so deep and rich in ceremony. You go in feeling one way and come out feeling completely another.
There are major shifts that happen that you don't even know about.
Whatever you need to get out of it - you do.
I went in disconnected and I came out connected. That's the only way I can describe it.
I went in knowing no one and very shy, and I came out feeling like I'd connected on a heart level with myself, and everyone, on a deep and gentle level.
The music guided me through, a sound journey of highs and lows, music from all over the world. Nidhi drummed beautifully throughout.
Jayne asked us to set an intention - if there was something we wanted to make better, or let go. The music and dance help you to change/ shift your perspective. the music and whatever happened in that room, broke me. What I received from that dance was 'work on your 'I don't feel worthy' issues.' 'DAnce though your pain.' At some point I started crying, tears were streaming down my face. I thought 'how do I carry on?' I managed to keep dancing. I had no idea what was happening, why was this happening to me! I observed the patterns in my life. Someone held the space while I cried. We shared what we wanted to let go of. I realised I was carrying around so much in my relationship then, and I didn't want to carry it around anymore. Feeling consumed by my other, I needed to find balance. I accepted that I needed to come and go as I please, that it was all I was capable of then. Love me for who I am, accept me for who I am. So much has changed since then since I danced this dance - everything has come into place and settled. But I needed this dance then. I am grateful for the music, for the journey, for the women in that room, the compassion and the honesty. For connecting with myself, my rhythm, my wisdom, my shaman, and shifting my perspective.
Movement is Medicine.
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